Well, theoretically, if you're trying to get home to someone, aren't you fighting for them while you're here? If you die, then you definitely aren't getting home.
Used to work, yeah. Now it feels more like I'm trying to survive this place than escape it. It's not really about getting home. I mean, I want to be home, but the chances of that happening seem smaller and smaller every day. [ especially when it's not just the ship she's scared of at this point ] Maybe now for me it's less about wishing I was home and more about what I'm working with here, what it takes to survive it. That includes the people.
Yeah, I still haven't found the on/off switch for those. I used to think I could do it, but I'm pretty sure there's always some kinda emotional strings. [ and now she's feeling defensive, weirdly. she's nit weak. ] I killed some girl Brendan knew in his world. He kept throwing himself in front of her, taking hits, trying to protect her, so I killed her myself. I can shut it off long enough to put a bullet in some girl's head, but it was to try and save him. He was... kinda going nuts over keeping her alive. [ but now she's spilling Bren's stuff, so she stops ]
Really? How'd you know it wouldn't be permanent? I thought I died. I seriously thought I was done. [ hhhhh god she wants to ask her about Tate but she knows she just shouldn't even go there. probably. ] I realized it was a nightmare after a while, but it took some time. I mean my world was... it was exactly the same.
... Yeah. Yeah. Me too. But I ran, I mean I didn't know it was a friend until it was kinda too late to even- Yeah. [ S Q U I N T. sigh. pause. ] Was it Tate?
[ the shrug can be heard in her voice, but her tone doesn't fluctuate somewhere between careless and thoughtful. the juxtaposition might seem unnatural any other way- but something about it fits. ]
Maybe? [ a sigh. ]
I dunno. He had a friend, back in highschool. [ it sounds so real, but that's because she knows how to sell it. because hayley plans and plans even if she does nothing else. she doesn't like tate. but he's useful. and hayley has no intention of letting a perfectly good tool go to waste. ] They were close I guess, and he blames himself for not stopping the guy- from what he did. [ off camera, her head shakes, and just there, there's enough of a self-conscious tremble to make it through. ]
Oh. [ Wichita's too willing to buy it. the woman in the nightmare called her killer Tate, it- it was him. but not him, she was so sure. Tate isn't a killer. he can't be. he's not like Moriarty, not even like Keller. and maybe this ship really has made her gone soft, because she accepts that maybe Tate's nightmare is becoming the killer his friend was. it wasn't really Tate. just a copy, a nightmare. like Little Rock. sure. ]
His mom was kind of a bitch. [ deflect, deflect, deflect. she tries for a sarcastic lift to her tone, but it's not the same as it usually is. ] Did you get to meet her too?
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That's your problem.
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Yeah, I still haven't found the on/off switch for those. I used to think I could do it, but I'm pretty sure there's always some kinda emotional strings. [ and now she's feeling defensive, weirdly. she's nit weak. ] I killed some girl Brendan knew in his world. He kept throwing himself in front of her, taking hits, trying to protect her, so I killed her myself. I can shut it off long enough to put a bullet in some girl's head, but it was to try and save him. He was... kinda going nuts over keeping her alive. [ but now she's spilling Bren's stuff, so she stops ]
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Honestly I kinda figured those were all just giant hallucinations about everybody's worst fears blown way outta proportion.
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And someone was trying to kill me. Somebody I know?
Knowing how it'd end, I guess I just figured I wanted it to happen on my own terms.
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Yeah. Pretty messed up, huh?
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Was that his house?
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Maybe? [ a sigh. ]
I dunno. He had a friend, back in highschool. [ it sounds so real, but that's because she knows how to sell it. because hayley plans and plans even if she does nothing else. she doesn't like tate. but he's useful. and hayley has no intention of letting a perfectly good tool go to waste. ] They were close I guess, and he blames himself for not stopping the guy- from what he did. [ off camera, her head shakes, and just there, there's enough of a self-conscious tremble to make it through. ]
But that's his story I guess.
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His mom was kind of a bitch. [ deflect, deflect, deflect. she tries for a sarcastic lift to her tone, but it's not the same as it usually is. ] Did you get to meet her too?
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No kidding right? What a nutjob.